Check out my impressive penmanship, y’all. Similar things can happen to you if you’re also tired of hearing about Boyle’s Law or Charle’s Law or Gay-Lussac’s Law in Chemistry (P1 and V2 and T1 yes yes yes, I understand). Did you like how I suddenly became a shrilly teenager just there? Beware, it happens.
I was told recently, by a person who I’m sure meant well, that I should be ashamed for every tear that I shed if I’m not genuinely upset over something tragic. “Did your grandma die recently? Go ahead, cry about that.” I’m doing this thing where I try to process what I want to respond before I actually say it, to save me from some cruel embarrassment, and I figured that what I was going to say to this person was going to be quite mean and full of childish exclamations, so I kept to myself, deciding it was not worth any sort of confrontation, and walked away.
I think this is a silly philosophy to carry around with you. Show of hands, who’s been told this before? You must be upset over something that is generally considered tragic to cry? My dad told me this as a child all of the time: “Why are you crying? Why are you crying, are you a little baby? Did you fall of your bike? Did you get a cut? Did something sad happen? No, no, and no? Then there’s no need to cry, you’re not a little baby.”
EDIT: I just googled “crying without cause” and it led me to a Depression Forum. Oops.
Now, I’m no psychiatrist, but it’s a philosophy that I’ve carried around with me that you’re allowed to cry, even if you don’t know why you want to cry. Even if something tragic hasn’t happened (for goodness sake, watch ‘Lily’s Disneyland Surprise’ and tell me if you didn’t cry—is it tragic? No, but it’s tragic if you didn’t cry).
One of my goals is to ride on a train by myself and melodramatically sit in the window seat and look out into the view and just cry. (Just like in the films!)
I cried myself to sleep last night—why, I can’t pinpoint exactly—and I thought that I could compose a certain playlist with certain songs that would certainly make me cry myself to sleep. I remember the first time I listened to ‘Holocene’—when it was first released on the internet— I had it on repeat and I cried myself to sleep that night.
Music is so fantastic. Just think about it. Music is just so… great.